yes!

Down a pound.....one little lonely pound...but hopefully it is gone for good.....puts me at 205.0 and about a month and a half to get safely below 200.0 before cedar point! :-)
good luck to all!

maintain..maintain..maintain..

so i am still maintaining........right at 206.0..........maintaining my fat..haha........for some reason i am just not sticking to ANYTHING.....anyway...blah blah blah....read past blogs for all excuses........hopefully today is a new start...
til next time!

The week awaits....

So....I am down the pound i gained last week..which puts me at my seemingly magic number of 206.0....I have grand plans to exercise most of the week....i will let you know how it actually turns out! I am just happy I lost that pound again! I don't want to ever find it again! :-)

I really hate eating cereal for breakfast...I am starving in an hour no matter what.....but I am also sick of finding something to make for breakfast too!!!
Today I am trying cereal yet again.......this time frosted mini wheats......and a yogurt....we will see how it turns out........I really hate cereal though.......i just know I am doomed for a day of starvation!

Good luck to all at weigh in this morning!
til next time....

feeling good!

YES!!! LAB IS OVER!!!!! One more checkoff tomorrow and then some days will actually be mine again!!! woohoo!!! 4.0 in the lab.......only a 3.5 so far in the class......whatever..as long as I pass!!
Actually got some exercise in today....my mom wanted to go to swim class.....but this morning called and said we should do something outside instead...so we went for a bike ride...a little over 2 miles...and i want to die!!! how sad is that!?!?!? I want to eventually ride to Lime lake.....Then came home and took hank for a quick walk around the field.......now off to work...hope i can survive the day......
I actually wrote things down and followed points too today! go me! :-)
til next time...

gain..

so as expected...i am up this week..can't remember what i was before...but now i am at a big fat total of 207.0..........
i have good intentions of monday...then....excuses and life gets in the way! haha.....
oh well..try try again...
i actually WROTE my food down for the day today..we will see how it goes!
good luck to all

so...pre results...

I am NOT weighing in tomorrow...i don't even want to know! haha....so......not week i will post results! :-)
I am starting to get a teeny tiny bit more of free time...only two more weeks of lab..then its off to clinical!! But at least that is a one day deal plus homework AT HOME....none of this running to the school and practice every damn day of my life plus out of class quizzes and shit...
i can't wait to just go to school on mondays..then clinicals on the other day and that IS IT!!!
til next time..

results

gain .5 pound....... I am at 206.5.........must have been all those double stuffed oreos I ate yesterday :-)

til next time.....

So stressed

I am so stressed out......Even though I got a 93% on my first exam...i still wanted to cry all the way home.....I absolutely hate check-offs....what is the point of me learning a way to do something if i go to the checkoff and they rip it out of my hand and show me ANOTHER way to do it!?!?!?!? Yes..I am the idiot...you show me how to do it once in class...then someone else shows me how to do it when i go to practice and CAN"T do it the way they showed in class...THEN I go in for my checkoff...get yet a THIRD person who shows me a different way.....amazingly I pass everytime...but I feel like a complete retard every time I go in there!
So.....this nursing program is putting me in a state of constant stress..and i hate it...i hate wounds..and wound care and pressure ulcers...and nursing is dumb......When I am sick I don't want a damn nurse asking me about my dog and if that is causing ineffective breathing.....i want my doctor to give me a damn breathing treatment and send me on my way....I hate nursing care plans...they are stupid..
and besides all this bullshit nurses supposedly do...which they dont'...because as many times as I have been in the hospital NEVER has a nurse tried to get me up to walk every two hours..came in and repositioned me......asked me if i need a bath..or offered a back rub..so nursing school needs to get in the real world...
my point in how this is diet related is that I am constantly nauseus....i feel like throwing up at all times...maybe that is why I have maintained the last week! haha
til next time..

4-13

And the result is......206.0 a .5 loss from last week...woohoo!!! I'll take it!! I didn't count points ONCE last week.....between the power being out.....my boob leaking and everything in between I just didn't do it...so..i am happy!
Gook luck to all!

finally got power back!!!

Woohoo!!!!!!! Got power back...I had to wait and weigh myself in tonight since before work the house was 40 degrees...i am down to 205.0 a loss of 5 pounds tonight!!!
However I am going to count my sunday morning weigh in at 206.5 as my official......so a loss of 3.5 pounds is awesome..i may see a 1 sometime soon!!!!
til next time....

Stressed....

Stress does a body good?
I don't think so..BUT....i haven't walked or done a bit of exercise since last week....monday i weighed in right at 210.0 and this morning i am at 204.5?????? what is up with that..whatever it is i want some more! haha......and its even my tom!!!!! I even had taco bell and used 13 flex points last night!
sigh...if only it will stay off..i am hoping for at least a 5 pound loss monday...
til next time...

ugh.....

start: 221.0
current:210.0
goal 170.0

so..i gained 1.5 pounds last week......must've been the lack of caring.....I am in a super shitty mood today....
I can't do blood pressure to save my life..why am i do damn dumb with this shit!?!?!?!? Give me a book test anyday! How hard is it to hear bp? Must be super since I am a retard...
In other news...I have my MRI on thursday at 1pm...can't wait to get this boob disaster behind me....I do not have time OR money for it.....
I started a new ww 3 month journal today......i love when they are all nice and new...the goal is to keep them perfect....by writing in them everyday and tracking my points...day 1 of new book...so far so good!
Had subway for dinner....7 points for a 6 inch sub......delicious! :-)
til next time...

totally expecting

a gain this week.....and you know what..i don't really give a shit...I haven't had a spare second to myself...my days are crammed so goddamn full with school..and bullshit work....and trying to get ahold of my stupid worthless doctors office.....
not in a good mood......and really REALLY irritated at it all.....so......whatever...if i gain i gain.....at least i walked a few times this week.....hopefully that will keep it to a reasonable gain...

weigh in results..

Starting: 221.0
Current: 208.5
Goal: 170.0

Woohoo!!! I am down 2 pounds this week!!!! I'm glad some of it stuck!!! This is short and sweet since I am off to school...so good luck to everyone!

walking does a body right!

and brings me in today for a total of 4.5 pounds lost! Now if i can keep it off til monday is the next challenge!!
I want to tell everyone how much I weigh but I am embarrassed!! haha.....i can't believe i let myself get so fat again! but oh well....at least its creeping back off.....maybe soon i will announce my fat ass..it would be nice to just do it and then post my actual numbers every week!
a walk today for sure...then maybe since i work early on the weekend will have to drag audio out to walk or something...I dont' want to stop once i've got on a roll!
till next time...

Such a nice day...

and probably the last tuesday I will have off for a long while........Actually got a walk in today with Kristi..it was great! I hope we can do it a few more times this week!
I gained half a pound this week which I am ok with.....I didn't count at all so i did pretty good.....This week I have started off strong writing things down and staying on track...
School started this week and it seems like it will be a lot of work..more than I am used to in school..considering I actually do my work now! haha...but I think I will be able to handle it! Just need to prioritize....
I am taking mondays and thursdays off work...except this week since the schedule was messed up...so I hope to get some kind of walking routine eventually......at least I rough idea....that is the one thing that really helps me stay on track.....
good luck to all this week....get out and enjoy the nice day!!!
til next time..

I can taste again!!!

Somtimes its faint..but its there..I can taste!! I think I am officially getting better!!! Too bad the weather is so shitty right now..but I think I need a few more days to kick it for good anyway.....
I hope I can stay on track now that I can taste...it is def. easier having no interest in food while being sick...but bring it on! :-)
Til next time..

The results are in...

I only wrote down what I ate for 2 days this week.....and i lost 1.5 pounds! GO ME!!!!!! The last three days I have only been tasting food to see if i can still taste.....so for the five minutes out of the day that I can actually taste somethign I stuff my face with everything...then I am done eating for the day..except crackers if I am starved....
I hope to be back to normal SOON...but by the looks of it this damn cold shit is hanging on for dear life in everyone for WEEKS!!!!! An I ahve only been at it for roughly 3 or 4 days.....
Good luck to all at weigh in this morning!
Til next time...

woohoo!!

Someone at work today said I look like i've lost weight! WOOHOO!!!! I love that...little does she know that I have only eaten crackers and vitamin c for the past two days since I can't taste anything..what is the point of wasting good food if i can't taste it!?!?!
My taste buds are coming back a little and then going away again...so i keep testing myself with food! haha :-)
I dont' think i'll do too good tomorrow at weigh in...but we will see...

Freezing my ass off....

I swear this is the NEVERENDING cold ass winter....so sick of it all....

I did get alot of exercise in yesterday......getting wood for the furnace....a 3 mile cold ass walk..and moving 40pound bags of pellets.....

I went to swim class today......and may walk tomorrow..depending on how the morning with my dad goes..not sure if we are doing anything yet since we have no money......

Just a quick update before I am off to work!
Hope everyone is having a good week!