ick....

So....starting out the day like normal........I still don't feel normal...I think when the pancreatitis subsided the flu like bullshit that is going around has taken its place...as my stomach is still feeling all crampy and I have to sit in the bathroom for at least 40 minutes a morning.....ICK....
I am having a hard time giving a sh*t at all about the diet when feeling like this....however..I am still attempting......
I had to go get my tetnus shot today and have my tb test done.....good news is I already had my hep b series back in the 90's so that is one thing I don't have to ask Audio to give me the money for....
I am having a really down day today......on the verge of tears...depression......sick of my sh*tty life and just wishing it would hurry up and I could get through the bullsh*t and move on already...I know I am making the steps to doing it but jesus christ.......ugh.....
Ok...enough depresso...I hope to kick it soon enough.....
til next time.....

What!?

So...for fun I just got out my cadbury creme egg box and figured how many points they are....and guess what!?!?!? I did the old fashioned way and in the calculator..and they are ONLY 3!!!!!!!! Only 3 POITNS!!!! WOOHOO!!!! Did they make them smaller or something!?!??! Whatever....I will take it! :-)

weigh in...

So...I weighed in today....and did not gain or lose so yay me!! I am still feeling sick....so no exercise...and still eating lightly.....bland foods...plus pushing liquids....
In other news I finally pooped today!!! 4 days of taking pain meds really does a toll on the body....meaning...i can't poo poo!!! So..I am excited that things are slowly working again!!!
I hope to get a walk or two in this week.....maybe tomorrow depending on how i feel when i get up and around....but we will see.....
good luck to all this week!

Day 3

So...this is the 3rd day in a row I have had to miss work....I am trying not to get too upset about it because that will just make me being sick worse...but it really SUCKS because I am in a constant struggle to get my hours back up before my anniversary date comes up so I can get my vacation back...no biggie if I can't make it...but I WANT it!:-) So.....last week and this weeks hours suck so bad right now.....and to top it off I only have two weeks before school starts and I have to start planning to pick up days..I can't just do it whenever......so...I am a little frustrated right now...
In diet news...I am still at the 1.5 pound loss that I was at the ONE time this past week I got a walk in.....hopefully I can maintain that til tomorrow...and am steadily ready to hit that 20 pound weight loss by may...already over half way there!
Good luck to all tomorrow at weigh in!

Ugh...pancreas...

Well the stupid pancreas has been at it again....ruining my work days......so there goes any extra $$ I may have had to do anything with.....ruining my vacation average...I am really gonna have to pick it up to get some hours now!
the only good thing about it is I am too sick to stuff my face..haha.....so i have been eating really dull bland foods like crackers...but may break down and have a delicious potato today...we will see....
til next time...

Woohoo!!

I am down 3 pounds!!! it could have been better...looking back on the week and some choices i made..but i am so happy to post a large loss like that considering the two weeks before have been slight gains!!
I am ready for a walk tomorrow before work!
til next time..

Apple salad....

Mmmm.....I love apple salad...so good...so few points.....except I have to hide it from my mother because she will eat the ENTIRE bowl of it!
In other news....diet is going so-so....I am still at a loss for this week so that is a bonus!!!
I am hoping to get in a bit more exercise next week........that wind was so bad for a few days we couldn't do anything!
til next time....

Grand plans and failed attempts....

I had grand plans of exercise yesterday and ALL of them fell through...first walking..because of the stupid rain....then swim class because work actually called me in for an 8 hour shift and you know I can't pass that up....
Today is faring out to be a pretty damn shitty day....
Yesterday I pulled my car up in the yard so I didn't have to carry the grocery's from the bottom of the driveway...and in the process....got my car SUPER stuck in the yard......
Then I get home last night a little after 11 to hear CONSTANT banging so loud that it is shaking the house.....the goddamn eaves trough is hanging by a thread and BEATING along the wall where our bed sits......BEATING so damn loud and annoying that it shakes everything in the whole downstairs..and has now been doing so for about 12 hours straight....I have had 4 hours of sleep...and if i don't escape this house (how, with my car stuck!?) you will soon see my body hanging from the eaves trough.......I even attempted to go out there like a CRAZY lady in my pjs with a bright yellow shovel to try and hook it to the eaves and rip the bitch down...but of course the rest of it is held securely in place with think wires.....so........the pounding on the house is creating a pounding in my head......
From the looks if it...a walk will not be happening...unless it brightens up out there a little bit by this afternoon.......
The highlight of my day will be going to applebees with my dad! I don't know what i want...do i want the chicken roll up...or should I just go for the boneless bbq wings!?!? I can't decide...haha....
til next time....

Stupid rain....

Well...it is still somewhat warm..but raining.....and not like the days of summer when we walked even with black clouds hanging over us...so..no walk today...what a disappointment....
I am going to go to swim class tonight though....so that is something!
As of today I am still down 4.5 pounds from monday....I hope I can keep it that way for the rest of the week!!!
I have to go re-do my drug test because my last one came back invalid whatever the hell that means!?! So i am trying to drink and NOT PEE!!! Me....the queen of peeing...who likes to do before and after my shower...and every time I go anywhere must use the bathroom before I go......
Hopefully we can get a walk in tomorrow........
I just looked up the calorie value for a peppermint white mocha, tall, non-fat......and it is still 9damn points!!!!! So......even though I have been wanting one...I am going to just say no........good thing I don't like going into Sbux anymore with all the assholes working there....so...I haven't really had a drink since I quit the bank....and now seeing the point values....it will be a RARE special treat......only skinny or lt. drinks for me! :-)
I have to go grocery shopping after my drug test today...not looking forward to it..not only do i hate shopping where I work...but I also have no money to buy anything with...I can't wait to have a real job! haha....I am 27 and still working my high school job...how pathetic is that!?!?!? Oh well........such is life I guess......
Til next time.....

Loving the weather...

even though I know it won't last....I am LOVING this nice weather......Went for a walk today and it was GREAT!!! I can't even begin to tell how much better I feel just from one walk.....between walking and swimming I am sleeping better...not yawning as much and am down almost 5 pounds from YESTERDAY!!!! I know that it can't last..haha...but....after the last two weeks of slight gains I am so excited....As long as there is no snow on the ground or rain to keep me away I am gonna try to keep up the walking....as long as it is above 30degrees!! haha :-)
I have to work today.....then 3 days off...even though I should pick up hours my days are filling up.....
I have to go get my shots sometime this week..I am shooting for tomorrow....a walk and possibly swim class at night..then thursday is my day with my dad.....I think we are going to applebees this time...so I am PREPARED point wise for that! then walk again if weather allows. Then friday swim class and probably laundry.......so...we will see....I wish I didn't have to go back to school and could keep this exercise schedule up.......but good news is I only have class two days a week most of the summer....then off for 6 weeks..so I am hoping to walk at least 4 times a week!
I am feeling motivated! :-) And Hank loves to see his girlfriend :-)
Til next time....

well....

I gained a pound...to be expected...so i am ok with it. those two cadbury eggs I ate last night were totall 100% worth it!...i am in a hurry as i got called into work early! woohoo!!!
Went to swim class..it was great!!! Tomorrow a walk.....then wed..swim...thurs..walk...fri..swim....
Lets see if i stick to it!!!!
til next time....

Where has the week gone!?

So..weigh in is tomorrow...I fear I did not lose much.....but...it is my TOM...which sucks....but is a great excuse! haha :-)

Went for a walk yesterday.....it was GREAT!!! I feel so much better after a walk..like I actually accomplished something.......hope to do it again soon!

Also went to swim class last week....it was also nice!!! I have been trying to get some exercising in and i notice the days I do I sleep alot better.....

Just a quick post as I am getting ready for work!
Til next time....

Swim class...

I forgot how fun swim aerobics is...even if i am the youngest by GENERATIONS...besides my mother of course......but still..you really do get a workout if you fully put yourself into it...I tend to work out a little in the deeper end to get mroe resistance....and i think it works!!! Its cheap...only $2! And I will be going back again for sure!!!!

til next time..

Feeling good....

I am back on it and feeling good....last week was a small set back with a teeny tiny gain...but this week I am feeling back on 100% :-)
Made spaghetti for dinner.....with whole wheat noodles that have 6 grams of fiber!!!!! Plus lt sauce with extra tomtato and extra lean ground beef in it! totally delicious!! I need to keep up with the meal planning....that seems to really do the trick..
tomorrow..my first day of swim aerobics! Can't wait to see if it is similar to the one I used to go to.....it will be a good way to switch up exercising a little....(hahaha..switch it up!? I haven't even exercised AT ALL!!! Except a walk or two...)
till next time....

The moment of truth.....

Well.......I gained this week..which I 100% expected......however it was only half a pound which I can live with considering I cheated every single night......which would have been fine if I hadn't used all of my flex points by tuesday this past week :-)
Oh well....I am not worried...I am feeling good about the week......the more hours I pick up at work the less I sit at home eating!!! :-)
I have plans to attempt the new dvd workout manda sent me and to go to swim aerobics once this week with my mom.....
In other news I bought some mint chocolate chip ice cream last night because it sounded so delicious....I HATE how they dont' put damn chocolate CHIPS in the ice cream anymore...tehy need to stop advertising CHIPS....its more like chocolate shavings...I HATE IT......It used to be my all time favorite until they ruined it......I am going to have to throw the rest of it out!!!! :-(
Ok..my rant about that is over :-)
Til next time....