yes!

Down a pound.....one little lonely pound...but hopefully it is gone for good.....puts me at 205.0 and about a month and a half to get safely below 200.0 before cedar point! :-)
good luck to all!

maintain..maintain..maintain..

so i am still maintaining........right at 206.0..........maintaining my fat..haha........for some reason i am just not sticking to ANYTHING.....anyway...blah blah blah....read past blogs for all excuses........hopefully today is a new start...
til next time!

The week awaits....

So....I am down the pound i gained last week..which puts me at my seemingly magic number of 206.0....I have grand plans to exercise most of the week....i will let you know how it actually turns out! I am just happy I lost that pound again! I don't want to ever find it again! :-)

I really hate eating cereal for breakfast...I am starving in an hour no matter what.....but I am also sick of finding something to make for breakfast too!!!
Today I am trying cereal yet again.......this time frosted mini wheats......and a yogurt....we will see how it turns out........I really hate cereal though.......i just know I am doomed for a day of starvation!

Good luck to all at weigh in this morning!
til next time....

feeling good!

YES!!! LAB IS OVER!!!!! One more checkoff tomorrow and then some days will actually be mine again!!! woohoo!!! 4.0 in the lab.......only a 3.5 so far in the class......whatever..as long as I pass!!
Actually got some exercise in today....my mom wanted to go to swim class.....but this morning called and said we should do something outside instead...so we went for a bike ride...a little over 2 miles...and i want to die!!! how sad is that!?!?!? I want to eventually ride to Lime lake.....Then came home and took hank for a quick walk around the field.......now off to work...hope i can survive the day......
I actually wrote things down and followed points too today! go me! :-)
til next time...

gain..

so as expected...i am up this week..can't remember what i was before...but now i am at a big fat total of 207.0..........
i have good intentions of monday...then....excuses and life gets in the way! haha.....
oh well..try try again...
i actually WROTE my food down for the day today..we will see how it goes!
good luck to all

so...pre results...

I am NOT weighing in tomorrow...i don't even want to know! haha....so......not week i will post results! :-)
I am starting to get a teeny tiny bit more of free time...only two more weeks of lab..then its off to clinical!! But at least that is a one day deal plus homework AT HOME....none of this running to the school and practice every damn day of my life plus out of class quizzes and shit...
i can't wait to just go to school on mondays..then clinicals on the other day and that IS IT!!!
til next time..

results

gain .5 pound....... I am at 206.5.........must have been all those double stuffed oreos I ate yesterday :-)

til next time.....

So stressed

I am so stressed out......Even though I got a 93% on my first exam...i still wanted to cry all the way home.....I absolutely hate check-offs....what is the point of me learning a way to do something if i go to the checkoff and they rip it out of my hand and show me ANOTHER way to do it!?!?!?!? Yes..I am the idiot...you show me how to do it once in class...then someone else shows me how to do it when i go to practice and CAN"T do it the way they showed in class...THEN I go in for my checkoff...get yet a THIRD person who shows me a different way.....amazingly I pass everytime...but I feel like a complete retard every time I go in there!
So.....this nursing program is putting me in a state of constant stress..and i hate it...i hate wounds..and wound care and pressure ulcers...and nursing is dumb......When I am sick I don't want a damn nurse asking me about my dog and if that is causing ineffective breathing.....i want my doctor to give me a damn breathing treatment and send me on my way....I hate nursing care plans...they are stupid..
and besides all this bullshit nurses supposedly do...which they dont'...because as many times as I have been in the hospital NEVER has a nurse tried to get me up to walk every two hours..came in and repositioned me......asked me if i need a bath..or offered a back rub..so nursing school needs to get in the real world...
my point in how this is diet related is that I am constantly nauseus....i feel like throwing up at all times...maybe that is why I have maintained the last week! haha
til next time..

4-13

And the result is......206.0 a .5 loss from last week...woohoo!!! I'll take it!! I didn't count points ONCE last week.....between the power being out.....my boob leaking and everything in between I just didn't do it...so..i am happy!
Gook luck to all!

finally got power back!!!

Woohoo!!!!!!! Got power back...I had to wait and weigh myself in tonight since before work the house was 40 degrees...i am down to 205.0 a loss of 5 pounds tonight!!!
However I am going to count my sunday morning weigh in at 206.5 as my official......so a loss of 3.5 pounds is awesome..i may see a 1 sometime soon!!!!
til next time....

Stressed....

Stress does a body good?
I don't think so..BUT....i haven't walked or done a bit of exercise since last week....monday i weighed in right at 210.0 and this morning i am at 204.5?????? what is up with that..whatever it is i want some more! haha......and its even my tom!!!!! I even had taco bell and used 13 flex points last night!
sigh...if only it will stay off..i am hoping for at least a 5 pound loss monday...
til next time...

ugh.....

start: 221.0
current:210.0
goal 170.0

so..i gained 1.5 pounds last week......must've been the lack of caring.....I am in a super shitty mood today....
I can't do blood pressure to save my life..why am i do damn dumb with this shit!?!?!?!? Give me a book test anyday! How hard is it to hear bp? Must be super since I am a retard...
In other news...I have my MRI on thursday at 1pm...can't wait to get this boob disaster behind me....I do not have time OR money for it.....
I started a new ww 3 month journal today......i love when they are all nice and new...the goal is to keep them perfect....by writing in them everyday and tracking my points...day 1 of new book...so far so good!
Had subway for dinner....7 points for a 6 inch sub......delicious! :-)
til next time...

totally expecting

a gain this week.....and you know what..i don't really give a shit...I haven't had a spare second to myself...my days are crammed so goddamn full with school..and bullshit work....and trying to get ahold of my stupid worthless doctors office.....
not in a good mood......and really REALLY irritated at it all.....so......whatever...if i gain i gain.....at least i walked a few times this week.....hopefully that will keep it to a reasonable gain...

weigh in results..

Starting: 221.0
Current: 208.5
Goal: 170.0

Woohoo!!! I am down 2 pounds this week!!!! I'm glad some of it stuck!!! This is short and sweet since I am off to school...so good luck to everyone!

walking does a body right!

and brings me in today for a total of 4.5 pounds lost! Now if i can keep it off til monday is the next challenge!!
I want to tell everyone how much I weigh but I am embarrassed!! haha.....i can't believe i let myself get so fat again! but oh well....at least its creeping back off.....maybe soon i will announce my fat ass..it would be nice to just do it and then post my actual numbers every week!
a walk today for sure...then maybe since i work early on the weekend will have to drag audio out to walk or something...I dont' want to stop once i've got on a roll!
till next time...

Such a nice day...

and probably the last tuesday I will have off for a long while........Actually got a walk in today with Kristi..it was great! I hope we can do it a few more times this week!
I gained half a pound this week which I am ok with.....I didn't count at all so i did pretty good.....This week I have started off strong writing things down and staying on track...
School started this week and it seems like it will be a lot of work..more than I am used to in school..considering I actually do my work now! haha...but I think I will be able to handle it! Just need to prioritize....
I am taking mondays and thursdays off work...except this week since the schedule was messed up...so I hope to get some kind of walking routine eventually......at least I rough idea....that is the one thing that really helps me stay on track.....
good luck to all this week....get out and enjoy the nice day!!!
til next time..

I can taste again!!!

Somtimes its faint..but its there..I can taste!! I think I am officially getting better!!! Too bad the weather is so shitty right now..but I think I need a few more days to kick it for good anyway.....
I hope I can stay on track now that I can taste...it is def. easier having no interest in food while being sick...but bring it on! :-)
Til next time..

The results are in...

I only wrote down what I ate for 2 days this week.....and i lost 1.5 pounds! GO ME!!!!!! The last three days I have only been tasting food to see if i can still taste.....so for the five minutes out of the day that I can actually taste somethign I stuff my face with everything...then I am done eating for the day..except crackers if I am starved....
I hope to be back to normal SOON...but by the looks of it this damn cold shit is hanging on for dear life in everyone for WEEKS!!!!! An I ahve only been at it for roughly 3 or 4 days.....
Good luck to all at weigh in this morning!
Til next time...

woohoo!!

Someone at work today said I look like i've lost weight! WOOHOO!!!! I love that...little does she know that I have only eaten crackers and vitamin c for the past two days since I can't taste anything..what is the point of wasting good food if i can't taste it!?!?!
My taste buds are coming back a little and then going away again...so i keep testing myself with food! haha :-)
I dont' think i'll do too good tomorrow at weigh in...but we will see...

Freezing my ass off....

I swear this is the NEVERENDING cold ass winter....so sick of it all....

I did get alot of exercise in yesterday......getting wood for the furnace....a 3 mile cold ass walk..and moving 40pound bags of pellets.....

I went to swim class today......and may walk tomorrow..depending on how the morning with my dad goes..not sure if we are doing anything yet since we have no money......

Just a quick update before I am off to work!
Hope everyone is having a good week!

Happiness is....

only gaining half a pound this week! woohoo!!! Try try again just seems to be the theme of this diet...so here i am..making yet another attempt to get myself to stay on track! haha....I am having my moments were i do awesome..then i mess it up...but you know what...i still don't beat myself up about it? It doesn't seem to be that big of a deal to me..of course I want to be healthier...and I know I will get there..just may not be as fast as i would like! :-)

ick....

So....starting out the day like normal........I still don't feel normal...I think when the pancreatitis subsided the flu like bullshit that is going around has taken its place...as my stomach is still feeling all crampy and I have to sit in the bathroom for at least 40 minutes a morning.....ICK....
I am having a hard time giving a sh*t at all about the diet when feeling like this....however..I am still attempting......
I had to go get my tetnus shot today and have my tb test done.....good news is I already had my hep b series back in the 90's so that is one thing I don't have to ask Audio to give me the money for....
I am having a really down day today......on the verge of tears...depression......sick of my sh*tty life and just wishing it would hurry up and I could get through the bullsh*t and move on already...I know I am making the steps to doing it but jesus christ.......ugh.....
Ok...enough depresso...I hope to kick it soon enough.....
til next time.....

What!?

So...for fun I just got out my cadbury creme egg box and figured how many points they are....and guess what!?!?!? I did the old fashioned way and in the calculator..and they are ONLY 3!!!!!!!! Only 3 POITNS!!!! WOOHOO!!!! Did they make them smaller or something!?!??! Whatever....I will take it! :-)

weigh in...

So...I weighed in today....and did not gain or lose so yay me!! I am still feeling sick....so no exercise...and still eating lightly.....bland foods...plus pushing liquids....
In other news I finally pooped today!!! 4 days of taking pain meds really does a toll on the body....meaning...i can't poo poo!!! So..I am excited that things are slowly working again!!!
I hope to get a walk or two in this week.....maybe tomorrow depending on how i feel when i get up and around....but we will see.....
good luck to all this week!

Day 3

So...this is the 3rd day in a row I have had to miss work....I am trying not to get too upset about it because that will just make me being sick worse...but it really SUCKS because I am in a constant struggle to get my hours back up before my anniversary date comes up so I can get my vacation back...no biggie if I can't make it...but I WANT it!:-) So.....last week and this weeks hours suck so bad right now.....and to top it off I only have two weeks before school starts and I have to start planning to pick up days..I can't just do it whenever......so...I am a little frustrated right now...
In diet news...I am still at the 1.5 pound loss that I was at the ONE time this past week I got a walk in.....hopefully I can maintain that til tomorrow...and am steadily ready to hit that 20 pound weight loss by may...already over half way there!
Good luck to all tomorrow at weigh in!

Ugh...pancreas...

Well the stupid pancreas has been at it again....ruining my work days......so there goes any extra $$ I may have had to do anything with.....ruining my vacation average...I am really gonna have to pick it up to get some hours now!
the only good thing about it is I am too sick to stuff my face..haha.....so i have been eating really dull bland foods like crackers...but may break down and have a delicious potato today...we will see....
til next time...

Woohoo!!

I am down 3 pounds!!! it could have been better...looking back on the week and some choices i made..but i am so happy to post a large loss like that considering the two weeks before have been slight gains!!
I am ready for a walk tomorrow before work!
til next time..

Apple salad....

Mmmm.....I love apple salad...so good...so few points.....except I have to hide it from my mother because she will eat the ENTIRE bowl of it!
In other news....diet is going so-so....I am still at a loss for this week so that is a bonus!!!
I am hoping to get in a bit more exercise next week........that wind was so bad for a few days we couldn't do anything!
til next time....

Grand plans and failed attempts....

I had grand plans of exercise yesterday and ALL of them fell through...first walking..because of the stupid rain....then swim class because work actually called me in for an 8 hour shift and you know I can't pass that up....
Today is faring out to be a pretty damn shitty day....
Yesterday I pulled my car up in the yard so I didn't have to carry the grocery's from the bottom of the driveway...and in the process....got my car SUPER stuck in the yard......
Then I get home last night a little after 11 to hear CONSTANT banging so loud that it is shaking the house.....the goddamn eaves trough is hanging by a thread and BEATING along the wall where our bed sits......BEATING so damn loud and annoying that it shakes everything in the whole downstairs..and has now been doing so for about 12 hours straight....I have had 4 hours of sleep...and if i don't escape this house (how, with my car stuck!?) you will soon see my body hanging from the eaves trough.......I even attempted to go out there like a CRAZY lady in my pjs with a bright yellow shovel to try and hook it to the eaves and rip the bitch down...but of course the rest of it is held securely in place with think wires.....so........the pounding on the house is creating a pounding in my head......
From the looks if it...a walk will not be happening...unless it brightens up out there a little bit by this afternoon.......
The highlight of my day will be going to applebees with my dad! I don't know what i want...do i want the chicken roll up...or should I just go for the boneless bbq wings!?!? I can't decide...haha....
til next time....

Stupid rain....

Well...it is still somewhat warm..but raining.....and not like the days of summer when we walked even with black clouds hanging over us...so..no walk today...what a disappointment....
I am going to go to swim class tonight though....so that is something!
As of today I am still down 4.5 pounds from monday....I hope I can keep it that way for the rest of the week!!!
I have to go re-do my drug test because my last one came back invalid whatever the hell that means!?! So i am trying to drink and NOT PEE!!! Me....the queen of peeing...who likes to do before and after my shower...and every time I go anywhere must use the bathroom before I go......
Hopefully we can get a walk in tomorrow........
I just looked up the calorie value for a peppermint white mocha, tall, non-fat......and it is still 9damn points!!!!! So......even though I have been wanting one...I am going to just say no........good thing I don't like going into Sbux anymore with all the assholes working there....so...I haven't really had a drink since I quit the bank....and now seeing the point values....it will be a RARE special treat......only skinny or lt. drinks for me! :-)
I have to go grocery shopping after my drug test today...not looking forward to it..not only do i hate shopping where I work...but I also have no money to buy anything with...I can't wait to have a real job! haha....I am 27 and still working my high school job...how pathetic is that!?!?!? Oh well........such is life I guess......
Til next time.....

Loving the weather...

even though I know it won't last....I am LOVING this nice weather......Went for a walk today and it was GREAT!!! I can't even begin to tell how much better I feel just from one walk.....between walking and swimming I am sleeping better...not yawning as much and am down almost 5 pounds from YESTERDAY!!!! I know that it can't last..haha...but....after the last two weeks of slight gains I am so excited....As long as there is no snow on the ground or rain to keep me away I am gonna try to keep up the walking....as long as it is above 30degrees!! haha :-)
I have to work today.....then 3 days off...even though I should pick up hours my days are filling up.....
I have to go get my shots sometime this week..I am shooting for tomorrow....a walk and possibly swim class at night..then thursday is my day with my dad.....I think we are going to applebees this time...so I am PREPARED point wise for that! then walk again if weather allows. Then friday swim class and probably laundry.......so...we will see....I wish I didn't have to go back to school and could keep this exercise schedule up.......but good news is I only have class two days a week most of the summer....then off for 6 weeks..so I am hoping to walk at least 4 times a week!
I am feeling motivated! :-) And Hank loves to see his girlfriend :-)
Til next time....

well....

I gained a pound...to be expected...so i am ok with it. those two cadbury eggs I ate last night were totall 100% worth it!...i am in a hurry as i got called into work early! woohoo!!!
Went to swim class..it was great!!! Tomorrow a walk.....then wed..swim...thurs..walk...fri..swim....
Lets see if i stick to it!!!!
til next time....

Where has the week gone!?

So..weigh in is tomorrow...I fear I did not lose much.....but...it is my TOM...which sucks....but is a great excuse! haha :-)

Went for a walk yesterday.....it was GREAT!!! I feel so much better after a walk..like I actually accomplished something.......hope to do it again soon!

Also went to swim class last week....it was also nice!!! I have been trying to get some exercising in and i notice the days I do I sleep alot better.....

Just a quick post as I am getting ready for work!
Til next time....

Swim class...

I forgot how fun swim aerobics is...even if i am the youngest by GENERATIONS...besides my mother of course......but still..you really do get a workout if you fully put yourself into it...I tend to work out a little in the deeper end to get mroe resistance....and i think it works!!! Its cheap...only $2! And I will be going back again for sure!!!!

til next time..

Feeling good....

I am back on it and feeling good....last week was a small set back with a teeny tiny gain...but this week I am feeling back on 100% :-)
Made spaghetti for dinner.....with whole wheat noodles that have 6 grams of fiber!!!!! Plus lt sauce with extra tomtato and extra lean ground beef in it! totally delicious!! I need to keep up with the meal planning....that seems to really do the trick..
tomorrow..my first day of swim aerobics! Can't wait to see if it is similar to the one I used to go to.....it will be a good way to switch up exercising a little....(hahaha..switch it up!? I haven't even exercised AT ALL!!! Except a walk or two...)
till next time....

The moment of truth.....

Well.......I gained this week..which I 100% expected......however it was only half a pound which I can live with considering I cheated every single night......which would have been fine if I hadn't used all of my flex points by tuesday this past week :-)
Oh well....I am not worried...I am feeling good about the week......the more hours I pick up at work the less I sit at home eating!!! :-)
I have plans to attempt the new dvd workout manda sent me and to go to swim aerobics once this week with my mom.....
In other news I bought some mint chocolate chip ice cream last night because it sounded so delicious....I HATE how they dont' put damn chocolate CHIPS in the ice cream anymore...tehy need to stop advertising CHIPS....its more like chocolate shavings...I HATE IT......It used to be my all time favorite until they ruined it......I am going to have to throw the rest of it out!!!! :-(
Ok..my rant about that is over :-)
Til next time....

Ugh......this is not my week.....

I am just 100% NOT FEELING IT this week....I am still doing good of maintaining the one pound weight loss since monday....but am not feeling any motivation to not cheat or stop counting at the end of the night even though I am still making those good decisions....
In an effort to behave myself I have decided to get my last batch of taco soup out of the freezer.....2 points for 1 cup..and its very filling so we will see if that gets me through the weekend!!!!
Good luck to all!
Til next time.....

Not feeling it....

I was feeling so good about dieting and everything...then I ate Applebees.....since then I am having a very hard time getting back on track...I cheated a little last night.....but am still down a pound from yesterday.....my goal for the rest of the week is to MAINTAIN that 1 pound loss through monday......i can do it......i just am not feeling it today...
I am going to make a new recipe today for dinner....mexi-tato and a salad....and i got out my taco soup from the freezer.....so i am hoping that will help me out this week!
til next time...

The Aftermath...

Ok...so I ate EVERYTHING I ordered yesterday..and was STUFFED...but it was tasty and delicious..and I am ready to be normal again! haha
Getting on the scale this morning wasn't too horrible...i am up .5 pound from weigh in.....which is up 3 from yesterday morning...but I know weight fluctuates and am happy with the result of my bingeing didn't ruin my diet.....
I absolutely 100% love the Biggest Loser......I want to have them train me..because they amount of weight they lose and the valuable information they gain I would be at my perfect weight in a month........granted the contestants are much much larger than me....so their one week 8 pound loss probably makes sense to the fact it took me 3 weeks to lose that same 8 pounds...but i guess as long as its gone..that the important thing.....
It is SNOWING again...and i absolutely hate it...I am so sick and tired of freezing my ass off.....unless literally it would freeze off...(haha how much weight do you think that would be!? j/k)
well i'm off to watch tv before work..and look at that wii sitting on the floor.....
til next time.....

Happy anniversary :-)

So today is Audios and I two year anniversary......seems such a short time ago we were drinking all the time and going out to the bar where we would sometimes get kicked out.....eating Taco Bell every night..haha...those were the days.......and back then I was skinny for a change! *sigh* see what getting married does to you....joking of course....
I am so much happier now....actually getting sleep...not feeling like crap from the bar the night before.....and having a good hubby at home......
For our "celebration" which we don't have time to celebrate due to him being in school at this moment....we will be getting Applebees takeout.....for which I am having boneless bbq wings (11 points for 8), a chicken fajita roll up (13 points for the whole thing) and loaded mashed potato (6pts) with ranch of course which I am guessing will be about 8 points also. Yes...you read that right......40 damn points...and i will ENJOY every single one!! :-) I will be eating that for lunch AND dinner and possibly some breakfast the next day...and I CAN"T WAIT!!!!!
I stepped on the scale this morning..my sad addiction that I can't break..and am down another 2.5 pounds from yesterday.....so that is good.....I don't even want to know what tomorrow morning will bring but I will risk it!
In other news...for our anniversary we will be going to Chicago in June...(we went to Vegas last year so thought we would switch it up) MMMMMMMmmmmm....Cheesecake Facotry here we come!!! Hopefully I will be back down to my normal healthy weight.....but we will see.......
til next time....

End of Week 3....

Today was weigh in day...and i lost 4 pounds!!!! go me!

till next time...

Feeling good....

One more day till the 3rd week of ww ends for me. So far so good......I feel like I can go out and still make healthy choices...and am even getting past the whole mess up once might as well screw the rest of the day.
I know if I make one bad choice but continue on the rest of the day NORMALLY I can still do it!!!
I am weighing myself in the morning and at night...and am having a very HARD time stopping it..haha...I don't feel angry or anything if i am up a little at night..I just like to have an idea of where I am.... Eventually I hope to be able to break myself down to just mornings..then every other day til i get down to doing it once a week......
Our two year anniversary is tuesday and we are getting Applebee's takeout....I can't wait!! I have my menu planned in my head!! It will be my free day....and will probably use every single flex point I have for the week..but it will be totally 100% worth it!
Loaded mashed potato and boneless bbq wings w/ ranch here I come!!!!
Hope everyone else is doing well......Good luck to all that weigh in tomorrow!
Til next time...

Getting into the spirit of the diet...

So....I really am feeling good about ww this time.....
I made homemade tacos for dinner and they were delicious! it is a little odd having to weigh out my meat and measure my cheese..but its worth it...
Yesterday was my "free" day.....I went to Lansing with my mom, dad and Audio for my moms 6 hour hair appointment!! While I didn't follow points I think I still made good choices...even tried sushi for the first time! I do NOT like the seaweed crap they wrap around it...but other than that its pretty good........
I weighed myself this morning after my "free" day kinda worried since I have been doing so good........and happily am down ANOTHER pound this morning!!! I think that makes a total loss of 4.5 pounds this week....but we won't know til the official weigh in on monday...
Sara Lee cheesecake bites...DELICIOUS!! 1 point for 1 piece!!! I just have to limit myself to one though!
til next time...

Two and a half weeks down....

A lifetime to go.....
The thing I find the absolute hardest in dieting is making good choices so that I am not STARVING by the end of the day...and.....
so far so good!!! I have not been hungry yet.......I even had so many points left over that I got to eat a delicious candy bar and still go to bed with 3 points to spare!!!! :)
Waking up today I am down a total of 3.5 pounds for the week....I am confident I can maintain that for the weigh in monday.........i hope....haha...i am not THAT confident....
I do feel good about it this time around......even though every other time i have tried i realized it was a lifestyle change...I still believe that and am making a much stronger effort to eat healthier...
and by healthier I mean NOT filling up on 100 calorie packs of things and eating the fruits and veggies in its place, while I do still enjoy maybe 1 100 calorie pack a day I won't eat 10 points worth! haha...
Still absolutely NO motivation to work out....NONE at all...so I am not.....just keeping on the diet....and so far so good...there will be a time when i need to throw exercise in...but for today...nope...
till next time...

why oh why....

Just a quickie

Ok...I am ready for work..but..i had to post i am SHOCKED to learn today I lost a total of 1.5 lbs!!!
woohoo!!! That means I am down 4.5 lbs total for the first two weeks......Not a great start...but I am happy.....any result abeit small is a good result!

till next time....

Winter weather advisory....

The story of life in Michigan..wake up to a new winter weather advisory every damn day!
I am feeling good enough to go to work today...I did eat and am not having pain YET...so...I am making the attempt...I may have to go home early...but who knows....
I did make my green bean, potato, turkey sausage mix thing yesterday....and of course it is DELICIOUS!!! and only 3 points for an entire bowl....and that is IF you make sure to get 9 slices of the turkey sausage...(yes..i did in fact weigh out how many pieces it would take to equal 1 point).

I am highly irritated that I cannot weigh myself constantly since i do not have a new battery for my scale yet.....if i can make it through the whole day at work I will get a battery the second I punch out!

till next time....

SIckness......and more sickness.....

So....day two of being sick.....I was feeling better today but right when i went to walk out the door and into hell my pancreas gave a kick......so i called in...and had to talk to the ASSHOLE store manager who tries to give me a lecture about how it hurts them when people call in......maybe he shouldn't cut the schedule so damn thin so that they are in dire straits if someone is SICK!!!

In other news...I tried to weigh myself this morning but the battery died in my scale..so it must be a sign that i should stop obsessing about weighing myself!!! And since i'm sick today I can't go in and buy a new battery.....oh well..one more day of rest and tomorrow i will go back to work.....maybe stay late to get some more hours or something......(Gotta pay those student loan assholes!!!)

MMmmmmmmmm........had subway again this morning........subway..the perfect diet food!! The rest of the day will involve bland boring foods...like potatoes, and maybe green bean with turkey sausage and potato to keep the pancreas nice and calm....

till next time...

Snow snow and more damn snow...

Surprise surprise it is snowing again....

Looks like today or tomorrow i will be out there in the FREEZING COLD to shovel...I am going to try and put it off until tomorrow in case it stops snowing and i may be able to stay warm..

I have to work tonight..which motivates me to not do anything until then! haha...i really need to clean the house...and do the works...include mopping the floors....however..everytime the past two weeks i have tried that i have had to shovel instead! haha....

I am still not motivated to exercise at all.......but as long as I stay on the diet i should be fine.....I really don't know what i need in my brain to click before i motivate myself like you two have with the exercise portion.....

I am just too depressed right now i guess.....

I do have to say I LOOOOOVE the weight watcher quesadillas, the breakfast, and the chicken ones are FANTASTIC!!! The bean one is a little dry...but overall pretty good!

Til next time...

Horrible day...

Today has been a horrible day.....all I have done is running around and around and around......phone calls...stress stress stress...
I am happy to say though that I did very good diet wise....even eating out all three meals for which my family so lovingly paid.. I did good....didn't even use ANY flex points!!!
I love that weight watchers has Bob Evans in their dining out companion! I got two full meals out of my breakfast!
And the good ol' staple of subway's turkey sub on wheat...brings back those days of summer so long ago! :)
As for working out..I have yet to motivate myself to turn that wii fit back on and tell me how fat I am and how bad I am for not having been on in months......all that shoveling I did today is going to have to be enough exercise for now...maybe tomorrow I will break out the good ol' fit.....
Its time.....I have been trying to get my fruits and veggies in every day last week..which i did a great job on..however this week....I haev not even come close...the only good thing is I am staying within my points and not using flex......
I need MOTIVATION!

Day 1 blogging...

So....I finally gave in.......since others I know are doing this I figure it can't hurt right!?
This is the LAST TIME I am going to be fat...it HAS TO BE THE LAST TIME!!!! I am SICK AND TIRED of being FAT and having a yo-yo diet type existence....this is it!
I will do it!!